There really are so many words to describe how i feel in this current situation, and yet so few...

Sad, lonely, hate, anger, despair, fear, guilt! I rally con't describe the exact emotions right now, but how everyone around me describes it is, quite simply, depressed.

Family issues are what caused the two of the three main problems right now. I won't go into detail but it has to with my mom calling me a slut and whore and my father thretening me and my boyfriend.

Which brings me to problem numero dos, I don't have any feelings for him anymore. this was brought on by me studying where we're at in our relationship, and let me tell you that didn't help at all! I realized that the feelings i'd had for him just dissappeared in a single moment... and i feel like crap for practically leading him on but I can't break up with him yet! Our 2 month annivarsary is this friday and plus valentines day is right around the corner... I'm trapped.

And the third and final issue... my friend, my rock, the person who understands me and keeps me sane, has skin cancer... Enough said...